Solitaire

Written by Enrae L. Mercer aka Super King Armor

Verse 1

You think my family’s thoughts about me would be stimulating
After printing my book of illustrations so amazing
But my Grandfathers gazing was a killer with 12 gauge in
He’d see me sitting in the kitchen turn around and disappearing
Is this what I fought so hard for? Only to confirm what I’ve been fearing
Part of me died that day, so say farewell to reason
After being homeless, I came back with so much focus
With my art and my sense of self I found a new closeness
Excited for my albums release as the day approaches
I broke even but something inside really felt bogus
After all that hard work still stuck in my Grandma’s basement
I felt defeated and beyond the scope of complacence
I guess I expected more the wool on my eyes a blanket
Circulation of I told you so from these vines entanglement
Cut off, left a corpse, a walking dead of sorts
To get me to give a fuck you need to find a better sport

Chorus

Solitaire! A lot going on but too numb to care
Polar bear cold and calculated and you came unprepared
It’s apparent loss is transparent..As everclear
Hand the steer as I commandier common fear
Solitaire! The hunter kill the cubs and the mama bear
A lot going on but too numb to care
Demi God, dancing naked in the dragon's lair
You better double down if you double dare
Lonely as a game of Soltiare


Verse 2

My Grandmama said live life as I wanna
In a convo that happened sometime around summer
But now you look at me like I’m a new comer
Ol blue eyes I did it my way and that’s a bummer
From my endeavors did I make the bread you really wonder?
Impossible! Rock bottom that really puts me under
No matter how you judge me you know that I still love ya
But I’m ice cold on the inside like a tombstone made of granite
This ain’t rescue from the projects or buy mama mink coat rap
This is throw her in the rehab and I ain’t never looking back
This all has set the stage, for this world I have engaged
The great white shark banged its body up against the cage
You thought you could scuba dive in this world I have been made
You thought I was the teddy bear but you never there
Standing swinging by myself instead you were stuck in fear
I found myself shut off from making any tears

Chorus

Solitaire! A lot going on but too numb to care
Polar bear cold and calculated and you came unprepared
It’s apparent loss is transparent..As everclear
Hand the steer as I commandier common fear
Solitaire! The hunter kill the cubs and the mama bear
A lot going on but too numb to care
Demi God, dancing naked in the dragon's lair
You better double down if you double dare
Lonely as a game of Soltiare

Verse 3

Oh so niggas is gravesending with they ageism?
First they told me I’m too strange with they hate in them
I’m too different in the way I’m penning in the space given
I’m not a rapper from the 90’s so my weights different
You burnt out so there’s no way you uplifting
You young niggas, old niggas there’s no difference
My ambition solid as a rock from start to finish
After all the success I’ve attained I know what its not
Now the path is unblocked its hard for me to stop
Mind body and spirit my all and I give it
My approach was worse wide open and rigid
I just don’t care anymore I know that I’m alone
My aggressive impulses they put me in a zone
I can feel the control in my muscles and my bones
I’m no longer attached I’m gonna buy me a home
With acres of land to see from my throne